Never ending story - 2019-11-22 (00:12)

Here i am, again.
These days, lots of things happen.
Or maybe not.
And again, i write these lines just because i want to work my mind out and have all of my feelings released. It is not for telling a story or anything.
It's life. Recently i learned that this sentence is so great and such a suitable quote for me. I can just use it with anything happened with me or with anyone around me. We all have to deal with good and bad times, this quote is the best to describe them all.
Right now i like to listen to a sad song and think deeply about my life.
I like to listen to Japanese songs which is sung by Korean Girl Group. What a strange hobby! LOL.
I learn something new month after month.
This year is really a big change for me.
I don't know if it is good or not, but i just try as hard as i can.
2019 is really a year of chance and a year to learn a lot, for me. Yes, for me.
I swear to God that nearly every thing i have tried is to get this kind of status. But does that satisfy me?
I would have no word on this.
I just need to let it be what it should be.
I believe in destiny and my life has been planned before. But i can make it better by try as hard as possible. And i also think that we can actually change our destiny. Just do the good thing, don't wish for things that harm others. If something bad happens to you, just welcome it with a happy face, it couldn't get better if you face it with a sad face, right? So why we don't make ourselves feel better by happily accept the truth and raise a smile. I believe that i can easily face any kind of obstacle if only i can be happy with that, just treat it like you treat an old friend, we can have some conflicts in the past, he/she might want to make you hurt, then just let it be, but treat him/her the way they deserve, as good as you can, then you will realize that they are not bad at all, then maybe you all can be good friends again, he/she can even help you with your future. Why don't we turn everything into positive thinking with a happy face, instead of just being a sorrow guy. Am i right?
Sometimes, i feel like i can not understand myself.
For example, about love.
Yes.
I just got to a new company, and for some kinds of destiny, i feel like i like this girl.
But it is so hard to ask her out or even talk with her.
I can not guess what she is thinking right now.
I guess i am not the man to be perfect and a man that every girl is dreaming about.
One of another problem is that i am not very confident about my financial status. I am not sure that i can make a girl happy when she is with me, and even i like her a lot there is no way for me to get the courage to ask her out or text here. OMG, i have been a scary man, when did that happen? Why?
Actually, i understand that this is just part of me talking, another part of me is strong and determined, it can easily get this mess clean and help me get out of these shallow water pound.
To be honest, i can work with myself to fix myself and then have a good solution that fit me best.
What i want to do now is to just interpret all of my thoughts out, it is kind of follow the flow of my brain, that is how the brain waves flow and works. How interesting that is! LOL.

I feel sleepy now.
It is time to go to bed.
Have a nice day!
Bye!